Its been a year and a half since I started this Blog. I never really learned it, but I am going to. I am soo excited to see God moving in my life. I want you to experience God the way I am right now. He is LOVE, he is amazing because he feels my pain, my joy he is with me always. He is my everything. I am a jesus "Freak" and I love it. I am on my way to becoming a radical believer. I have to. There is no other way for me. I do not want to be a Christian who just goes to church and never changes or grows in the Lord. I am not the kind to just be in the church choir . I have this fire burning in my soul, and there is this intense hunger that only God can fill. The more of God that I get the more of him I want. I have spent many years trying to fill my heart with everything else. I have tried the 'worlds way" Nothing else works. Nothing in this world, no human can fill that void that I had. I love my children and my husband but they are human and humans are capable of causing pain, beaking promises. I have found that when I love God with ALL ( not just alittle) of my heart, then and only then can I love with an agape love. like God's. He helps me to look past the imperfections and see that glimmer of hope that He is working in their life. That ignites a spark of faith that I need to pray God's word would continue to change their life. which in turn rattles the heavens to hear and answer my prayer and changes are happening. Woo Hoo! YES!!! There is power in prayer people. God is mighty he is able to do mighty things for us, because as we seek him , it no longer matters that my needs are met, so my prayers are lining up to what God wants , what his will is and that is that ALL shall be saved. Saved from HELL! Hell is real. I have has some crazy experiences in my life that I will NEVER forget. I am feeling like I should share these..go with the leading...well,
I was 18, I was a tossed to and thro christian, going to church regularly but being easily tempted away to parties and then feeling bad..but I loved to evangelize even while I was drinking alcohol or getting high, I was sharing JEsus with them all...and this one night this person, she was 14. She said stacie F your God. I don't want God in my life and I am sick of hearing you talk about him. I don't want to ever meet your fn God I would rather have die and go to HELL. I just shook my head at her like your crazy to think that way or say that! It wasn't until I was at her funeral about a week later that the reality of it all hit me and I just broke down. She had been riding in a mini truck in the back with a bunch of drunk teenagers and the truck went around a corner and tipped over and landed on her neck and she was decapitated. She died instanly they said. everyone at the funeral was crying for the tragic loss of this very young girl who had her whole life ahead of her... WHY they were yelling? But I was hearing her voice screaming loudly at me F your God Stacie . Thank God for the mercy of God because I needed it, It was a very devestating experience. I wish I could say that after that i straightened up and served faithfully but I wasn't really tired yet. It wasn't enough to straighten me up yet. I hope that somehow in that week that A. cryed out to God and told God she needed him and she didn't mean it and she is in heaven right now . Its very possible, sometimes the tough ones are hurting inside the most. I've had two more very similar experiences, one was where I backslid to go out with this guy that was good looking, I was 19. That same week I had been touched by God in some powerful ways but my flesh was screaming...party!! guys!! Well I spent a few days with this guy, he was hurting but I was too convicted to talk about God. I just wanted to party and have fun. Well, He committed suicide. he hung himself. At his parents house, in the garage. I spent the last three days of this guys life with him and knew Jesus and a way out and was too convicted to tell him Hey Jesus loves you He can give you a renewed Hope a new life......Powerful right? I can never look at life the same way because of these experiences. Death is soo real. We can't change that reality in life. we all take it for granted. But the bible says no one is promised tomorrow. Next time you meet someone , look into their eyes and consider the possibility that this is a very devine appointment and you have one chance to get this right. There could be no more tomorrows for them. Oh God light the fire in our hearts!! We are sooo selfish! We want to be comfortable and content. Stir us up Lord. Have mercy on us!!! Deliver us from complacency....shake us up to hunger for you more than anything else on this earth!! Give us a burden for the souls that do not know you and do not have salvation in you.
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