Jesus is my rock. I have been going through sometimes of testing, and although it is painful or hard for me, there are people who have suffered even greater than I . Today I feel as if I have come through a tunnel of testing but I have come to the otherside. Today there is light!! Today God is near and I can sense his presence. Today I am blessed. Beyond blessed. Its as if I have been on a spiritual retreat and I am renewed and refreshed.
3 days ago I was exhausted and tired and experiencing thoughts of despair. Nothing in my life seemed to be as it should be. But Gods word sustained me. The Holy spirit has breathed new life into me and today I am a new creation in Christ Jesus.
I have learned some powerful things this week. One is that no matter how I am feeling, Gods word does not change and I cannot be moved based on my emotions...My heart is desperately wicked. Jesus is the way the truth and the life...
The other thing is that I have to allow room for my children to make mistakes in this life and trust that God has his hand on their lives and let go. That is really hard for me. I believe it is because I never had a mother. I did not experience the presence of a woman in my life that loved me and could guide me with daily counsel and love and constant prayers. So I tend to voice whatever I feel to my children as if I am your mom and you need to listen to me because I know about life more than you and I want you to suceed without making mistakes as I did so listen to me, but they cannot hear me...So there is division at times and then I get emotional and hurt.
Thank you Lord for showing me this truth and opening my eyes to it. Help me to apply your word to my life and grow to be more like you Jesus......
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